My Story

     I was in my 20s when my battle with chronic depression started. Memories of my childhood were surfacing. Anger, lack of self worth. I went to my physician and that was my first diagnosis with depression. I was given prozac and referred to talk therapy. This approach would help slightly, but I never really got better. So I just went about my life coping as best I could as a young woman in her 20s. At age 29 I had my beautiful son, then at 31 I decided the toxic relationship I was in with my sons father just wasnt going to work out. So I moved back close to my family and was now a single parent. This couldnt be so hard right? Parenting is difficult enough with 2 parents, but 1 parent who is battling depression, lets add on top of that fear, worry and anxiety. It was tough.

     In 2008 I was 34 and graduated with high honors for Massage Therapy, I was pretty proud of myself, I barely graduated high school. In 2012 I got brave and started my own Massage Therapy practice and was successful. There were moments in my life where I really felt good and was happy. And moments where I was just constantly getting drained by life, drained by being a single mom, drained from being a massage therapist. My depression symptoms would come and go. I never really found anything that stuck, I tried different antidepressant but the side affects were to much. I never felt I was healed by anything from the past. Or to even help me cope with my present circumstances. Throughout my life I have always felt a connection to spiritual practices and metaphysics. When I was consistent with my spiritual practice I always felt better. In my 40s I started to get into my spirituality more. Some where in there I took my levels I & II for Reiki. I was always fascinated with holistic type healing. During this journey I also realized I was highly empathic and sensitive which could explain how I was getting drained all of the time, picking up other peoples emotions. 

     Then in 2020 the crisis of Covid was sweeping the nation. Massage Therapists were shut down, being empathic I was absorbing the negativity and anger people were feeling. My depression and anxiety was at an all time high. I was feeling burnt out from working with primarily therapeutic massage clients and wanted to try something new, so in November of 2021 I took a position performing massage for hospice patients. Even though I really enjoyed the work, it was even more draining, high maintenance.  I held on for quite a while, I was again burnt out, severely depressed and angry at the world,  Whats wrong with me?? Why dont I deserve to be happy?? I was at the point in my life where if I cant get over this pain, then I dont want to be here,  I knew that wasnt a possibility, I knew I had purpose! I decided to get back on antidepressants, they did help for a while in the past, I would try them again just to get me functioning in my life, it did help.. I started to seeking more spiritual/energy type alternatives to cure my depression because midwestern philosophies didnt resonate with me. So I decided I was going to start doing the work on myself to really get to the bottum of what was/is creating the road blocks in my life and start creating the life I want! I was back on antidepressants and started back on talk therapy to help with some childhood trauma. It did help. I received Reiki and other energy work to release the blocks in my chakras.  I stopped playing the victim and started to take back power in my life. Your outer world is a reflection of your inner world and I took that seriously. I needed to transform what was on the inside into something  amazing and beautiful because I want my life to be amazing and beautiful! Setting boundaries with people and feeling worthy and loving myself. I take care of my body by eating healthy and going on nature walks in nature to help me feel grounded. 

     In May of 2024 I gained the courage to quit my hospice job, and pursue my dream as an Intuitive Energy Healer. I didnt realize how draining that position was to my soul until I quit.  My healing accelerated once I started to put it to the universe that this was what I wanted to do. I havent been on antidepressants for over a year. The only time I get depressed is during certain situations which is normal. Im no longer chronically depressed. I now have the tools to pick myself back up if Im having a down moment. Being consistent is key and knowing you are worthy and deserving of a happy life. Now I feel so happy and grateful for this journey and I got through it and so can you!! I feel grounded, happy and worthy of abundance. I live a life filled with purpose. I listen to my heart and soul and that guides me in creating the things I want in my life. Your Worthy!